Everyone makes mistakes …

Granted most of those mistakes don’t result in the death of innocent people, and most people don’t go out with the intent to get into a fight on a Saturday night. I am in no way going to condone the actions of Kieran Loveridge. What he did was gutless, cowardly, unprovoked and irreversible. By punching a young man minding his own business in the back of the head he changed the course of many, many lives. Whether it was truly a mistake or patterned behaviour remains to be seen.

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Out in the open …

Living openly with anxiety and depression is hard. I know that sounds really strange but it is the truth. Part of me wishes it was all still hidden away and that I was living in quiet oblivion. I know that it needed to come out but it is hard to know what to say sometimes.

I have honestly lived with a heavy deep sadness for such a long time (not just weeks and not just since life unravelled spectacularly) I am talking probably even decades. I almost don’t know what it feels like to not be depressed or anxious on some level. I also think that there is a big difference between having depression (and still being able to enjoy the normal ups and downs in life) and being depressed or having an acute episode of depression whereby life feels pointless and the pain of depression (and its ever present side kick) anxiety just gets too much to cope with. Sometimes the acute episodes last days sometimes they linger for much longer. When I am lucky after an acute episode I can feel quite energetic about life and productive but lately it seems that the set point is 0 where for most people set point would be  or even more! Continue reading

The dirty little secret …

About a week about I wrote this With a heavy heart and much sadness about the horrific situation in the offshore detention camps set up by the Australian Government to process and deter refugees and asylum seekers from arriving in Australian waters by boat. I honestly didn’t that things could get any worse. It would seem I was wrong. The more I read, see and hear about the conditions that our government has overseen with the mandatory offshore detention policy the more I am horrified. More and more there are stories of horror coming out of Manus and Nauru. One of the whistleblowers Trauma Specialist Pau Stevenson describes the trauma he was treating in the camps as the worst he has ever seen, worse that the Boxing Day Tsunami or Bali Bombings. Continue reading